Her Letter to the Ex

Nabasa ko to sa Multiply ng highschool friend ko. May favor siya, at gusto ko siya tulungan. Wala masyado nakakakilala ng blog ko, pero at least I helped her to spread her message.

OK here it goes.

Seriously. Ngayon ko lang 'to gagawin sa buong buhay ko. I need you to do me a favor. Whatever will be written here, I want you to copy and paste it. post it anywhere [facebook or multiply, I really do not care] just please please repost it.

reason: There is this person that I really really love and somehow that person would not want to talk to me for at least three months. This is the only way that I could think of so that I would be able to give this message to that person. Parang gm lang. Kahit alam ko na hindi niyo siya kilala, sigurado ako na makakarating sa kanya 'to. That's the power of messages, right? kaya, please, if ever mabasa niyo 'to, irepost niyo.

True love is at stake.

To my dearest ex.

I know you wouldn't want to talk to me. You told me not to talk to you for at least three months. So far, I am able to follow your orders. Halos isang buwan narin. Sana hindi naman masama na ginawa ko 'to. Technically, I am not breaking the rules dahil wala ka naman sinabi na bawal ako gumawa ng ganito para sayo.

I do not blame you for what happened. I personally knew that we need this break for the both of us. I just couldn't accept it at that time. I want you to know that it is not your fault. Maybe I have hurt you so much too many times for always putting the blame on you. for always making you feel that you are the "bad guy", but then I have realized [it may be too late] that the blame should be on the both of us. Believe me, I really tried to be the most mature person that I can in handling our break up. The pain is crushing me every single day. I am trying to put answers on my own questions just so I can satisfy myself. I swore to myself that I will never entrust my heart to you again.

BUT. it's still you. There was no effort coming from me. I did not tell myself to love and choose you again, BUT I DO.

THIS HEART IS STILL BEATING FOR THAT SAME PERSON IT SWORE NEVER TO LOVE AND TRUST AGAIN.

BUT IF IN CASE you do not feel the same for me anymore, I am ready to accept it. If it is not me you want in your life anymore, I will accept it. Just know that this heart is fixing itself and the trust is rebuilding itself, preparing and waiting for your come back. I know that I have a lot to prove to you. This time I am the one who needs to prove the love. Not you. You've done so much for me already. Too late, I know. I am really really sorry if I took you for granted. I'm sorry, I really am. :(

If you are happy and contented and you think that your life would be better without me, it's okay. Cliche as this might sound, if setting you free is the last and final way that I can show you how much I love you, know that I would cooperate. Just please, please, never forget that when everything in your life becomes uncertain, there is somebody here ready to offer you 1 thing certain. and that would be my genuine love for you.

I know that you do not expect me to say things like this because as I said, this is not my usual. You might have expected me a message full of anger and pain, but see, it's not. I am not mad at you. I was never mad at you. I just felt hurt. I know we can't be friends anymore, more so we cannot be "us" anymore, and guess what, I really hate that part.

Just be happy, okay?

It's okay if you still need to find things on your own and if you need to do things without me. I understand. I had my shot and obviously I sucked. fault is on me now. And guilt is really bugging me.

hey, I'm really sorry. Really. with all my heart. I'm sorry if I have not been much of a good partner. I really am. I hope that someday, you'll find a place in your heart to forgive me.

I'll only say this once, I miss you. and I still love you.

Thank you for being my bestest best best friend in the entire world. :)

having you made everything really easy to deal with.

it was a package - a friend, a bestfriend, a confidante, a lover, and the best partner in life. :)

be brave, little one. :) and take care. :)

The person who felt the best love in the entire world,

PK

[btw, sorry if this has been a crappy message. random thoughts y'know]

"but something in my heart just would not let you go... I just wanna know.

What if we were wrong about each other, what if you were really made for me."

* I REALLY REALLY LOVE THIS PERSON THAT'S WHY I'LL OWE YOU BIG TIME IF THIS MESSAGE WILL REACH ITS DESTINATION.

Sana nakatulong ako Dhee. I'm here to help. :)

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Sabi sakin ng friend ko na hindi sa kanya galing yung letter. Nag-forward lang daw siya. Naloko ako. Haha!
Grabe ka Dhee! Nahuli mo ko dun ah! XD
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